Not too long ago (actually it was four days ago), I was commissioned to do a website design which included a landing page, profile page, and two extra miscellaneous pages. I wanted to please my client and to make him happy so I kept in contact with him throughout the process and made sure that every step I made in the design was to his liking. I wanted to make sure that the end product would cater to him and his intended audience.
I was being complemented on completing the designs in a few short days (haha.. sleepless nights you see) but I kept feeling that I was being too slow. For that reason, my client had to endure my constant apologies for being slow.
When it came time for us to discuss the price, I was very afraid and nervous. I know that I gave him a quote before going forth with the project and that we both agreed on it. Yet I felt that I needed to lower the price because something inside me was telling me that I needed to compensate for my slowness.
So I did. Drastically. And even then, I thought it was too expensive.
I sat in my room thinking that the client is going to think my price is absurd and that I should lower it even further.
What he wrote in reply was something that I did not expect.
“…the market isn’t the best, especially for someone as talented as yourself. Anyway, the point of this ramble is that you’ll get some people who can afford to pay you what you’d like and then others who want high quality work for unrealistically low prices. It’s seriously a matter of not selling yourself short.”
I never would have thought that someone would say that to me, let alone someone who’s a stranger.
I have these strange battles with myself where half of me believes that I am good at what I do but then there’s the other half who’s hellbent on telling me that I suck. I think that most people can understand that situation—it isn’t fun, haha. I don’t know if I’ll ever over come that inner demon, but I hope that someday I will.
“I said: “Your Eve was wise, John. She knew that Paradise would make her mad, if she were to live forever with Adam and know no other thing but strawberries and tigers and rivers of milk. She knew they would tire of these things, and each other. They would grow to hate every fruit, every stone, every creature they touched. Yet where could they go to find any new thing? It takes strength to live in Paradise and not collapse under the weight of it. It is every day a trial. And so Eve gave her lover the gift of time, time to the timeless, so that they could grasp at happiness.”—The Habitation of the Blessed, Catherynne M. Valente (via hotelsongs)
“We don’t read and write poetry because it’s cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for.”—John Keating, Dead Poets Society (via senshuk)
“Recall your thoughts inward, and if while contemplating yourself, you do not perceive yourself beautiful, imitate the statuary; who when he desires a beautiful statue cuts away what is superfluous, smooths and polishes what is rough, and never desists until he has given it all the beauty his art is able to effect. In this manner must you proceed, by lopping what is luxuriant, directing what is oblique, and, by purgation, illustrating what is obscure, and thus continue to polish and beautify your statue until the divine splendour of Virtue shines upon you, and Temperance seated in pure and holy majesty rises to your view.”—Plotinus | An Essay on the Beautiful (via blogut)
“Artists are visionaries. We routinely practice a form of faith, seeing clearly and moving toward a creative goal that shimmers in the distance—often visible to us, but invisible to those around us.”—Julia Cameron (via jonathanmoore)
Lately, I find myself missing a lot of the things I used to do at school. This includes stuff like making prototypes, dealing with and understanding users, designing interfaces and creating layouts.
This summer, rather than spending my days at school I’ve opted to dropping my courses for a more relaxing summer and a summer where I can reflect on my life. Nothing much, haha.
I didn’t want it to be a non-productive summer so instead of just lazying around like I normally do, I’ve been trying to hone my skills and learn new things. Just last week, I made a web layout and successfully converted it to HTML/CSS. Now I can’t stop learning new things about coding and such. To be honest, I have learned more about design and myself as a designer on my own compared to being in school.
I’ve given myself a bunch of goals to complete this summer and hopefully I’ll be able to do all of them.